It’s Tuesday. I’m sitting in a chair in the “Breast Care Center” at Norfolk General Hospital. Pat’s here, being prepared for her outpatient surgery today. I’m here to support her, and make sure she knows that I will take care of her today. Make sure she knows how much she means to me.
I’m not in crisis. Despite what people think. I’ve elected to depart the church that I went to for half of the past year. I elected to do that. I wasn’t pushed. I was welcome there. But the problem I had there was the same problem I’ve had at so many other places. I could not be me. I could not behave naturally. I had to behave in a way that the people there could accept. I had to follow a script. I had to build a character. A facade. So that I appeared to be like them. So that I appeared to have the same values. The same behavior patterns. So that they could feel comfortable around me, and I would not disturb them.
I know this to be the case. For it’s something that was being told to me. More and more frequently. By more and more of them. There are times I wonder about people, and why they do what they do. To me, it’s like the people of the church have concluded that science is a sin. And that science is a lie. And that the information science provides about life, the universe, physics, medicine, and all the rest, are a creation of man that drives a wedge between us and God. That science, and thus knowledge itself, cause us to question God.
I’ve found the opposite, myself. For I cannot help but feel that only God could have created something a mind numbingly, unimaginably huge as the universe that we live in. Think about it. We live in a galaxy of nearly 200,000,000,000 stars. That’s 200 Billion. With a B. And think about it further. Science is piecing together evidence that there are hundreds of billions of Earth like planets out there in just this one galaxy. And there are hundreds of billions of galaxies.
Perhaps this is another instance where people fear what they can’t understand. Or what makes them uncomfortable. And they fear the knowledge that our Earth is tiny beyond imagining within the context of the universe. And they fear the knowledge that perhaps God has made other life forms in his image on other worlds, in other galaxies. And that we are isolated on our little island in the universe because of the sheer size of the universe, and the incredible distances between the stars. Distances where are pathetically small when you look at the distances between the galaxies.
Shine a beam of light at Proxima Centauri. It’ll take about 4 years to get there. Shine that same beam of light at the Andromeda galaxy. It’ll take better than 22,000,000 years to get there. That’s how far apart the galaxies are. What if God has put a different life form in each of the 200 billion galaxies, and those life forms can never interact because of how far apart the galaxies are?
The more I learn of science, the more I can’t help but believe that God exists. And yet, to so many people, science violates the “truth” contained in the Bible. I just don’t understand.
It’s like the topic of “evolution”. Evolution is a theory. But, all the physical evidence we have supports it. Yet, people hold to the absurd notion that, Bang!, 6000 years ago, the universe appeared out of nothing, in the exact form it’s in today. And that humans appeared out of nothing at the same time. And that God went to all the trouble of putting an archaeological history in place to weed the people of faith from the people of no faith. How else can you explain the dinosaurs? How else can you explain the ice records in Antarctica, and Greenland that go back more than 10,000 years? How else can you explain the Neanderthals, and the modern humans existing at the same time, and competing with each other, 50,000 years ago?
God sure went to a lot of trouble to set up a fake history just to weed out people that don’t believe, didn’t he? Geeze.
And then there’s bacteria. Try and explain that one. Evolution says that bacteria will develop immunity to drugs if you expose them to those drugs for a long enough period of time. That the immunity is a naturally occurring event caused by genetic mutation. Genetic accidents. Something goes wrong in cloning the genetic structure of the parent bacteria when it splits, and makes a copy of itself. And the copy has an immunity to the drug. And the copy becomes successful in life.
Evolution. By definition. It’s a near perfect example of the theory. And that life, engineered by God, has the ability to adapt to its environment in such a way is an amazing thing. God sure knew what the heck he was doing when he created life and granted it that ability. Wow! How can you not believe in God when you see how masterful a creation evolution is?
And yet, there are people that declare that evolution does not exist. I fail to understand that at all.
It is reasons such as this that have caused me to leave the church. Again. It is reasons such as this that make it very unlikely that I’ll ever return to the church. For I find the people of the church deliberately blinding themselves to the wonders of the universe that God has created. And doing so in the belief that it’s all a test of faith that God designed for us.
I can’t agree with that. I can’t live that way. I can’t accept such things. And I can’t lie, and pretend that I do just to make the people around me feel comfortable, and safe.
There is a story. As set of stories, actually. Locked away in my head. About the birth of nano-technology. About how mortal men learn to manipulate matter at the sub-atomic level. And become able to control their own genetic structure. And about how they create machines that follow rule sets that manage the genetic structure of men. And how that leads to the breeding of human sub-species as required for governments, and corporations. To support the increased productivity of the corporations, and the increased profitability of the corporations. How we come to breed “perfect” humans. Perfect sports athletes. Perfect warriors for the military. Perfect minds. Perfect corporate human resources. In effect, perfect slaves.
It’s a nightmare world. And by closing our eyes, and our minds, we leave the door open for it to happen. After all, isn’t it true that Satan spreads lies. And that Satan spreads fear. And if we are afraid of the universe that God has made and given us, where will that lead?
I’ve rambled enough for one day.
Ignore the truth of the universe if you so choose. I can’t. I won’t. It’s a marvelous creation that God has given us. Pretend it’s a test of your faith in God if you wish. Pretend that it’s only 6000 years old. And that God went to all the trouble of creating dinosaurs, giant crocodiles, strange insects, and all the rest, to make it look like there has been life on Earth for the past 500 million years or more, just so he could test our faith, and weed out those of us that doubt the words of the Bible from those of us that don’t.
Believe what you want to. That’s what we all do anyway, isn’t it?